fcuked up mood

(insertname) : since she appeared in your life , i feel like an extra , like totally okay . you seems to care more about her than me . she texts you / calls you every single day , flirt with all your friends and make a big fuss like she know them really well when she know them like what , less than a month ?  :(  upset sia. when you hang out with them , than you wont bother t even text me de . for the past few days , i kept waiting for your text , holding my phone 24/7 and everytime it vibrate , i rush t it t check out who isit , hoping its you . its always disappoinment after disappointment . i don't know who she is . i tried not t care about her , try not t get jealous of all th attention she's getting from you , but you thinks its that simple . she's not even like your gans or something but yet you treat her like a princess and me like .. shit ? once , you used t text me i love you / i miss you etc every few hour but nao i dont even get those text anymore .  you know why everytime your outside i wouldn't reply your text ? cuz when your outside and having fun , you tend t forget someone called me . you take a long time t reply , or even if you reply , its one or two words. when was the last time we talked on th phone ..? it was ages ago , like what , a month ago. i miss how we used t have those late night chats till the wee hours of th morning . FML , i miss alot of shit that we once used t do tgt . i haven't hate anyone for quite a long time , and i swear i wouldn't. but its really hard for me not t hate her . even when boys text me , i try t reply them lesser for th sake of you . i remained loyal and faithful t you all these while . but you .. yes you seldom text girl . but once she entered ur life , you 've changed . i worry everyday , about what you doing outside , about losing you but i'm afraid t ask you ,  i wish she would just scram , but i'm no position t say that. maybe i'm th extra one after all . maybe i should step out of all these fcuked up shit . maybe ..