Sorry

When you ignored me, do you know how cold everything around me started to feel. I wandered behind you, looking at your back view from a distance, thinking and trying to know what your thinking. Sad? Angry? jealousy? How would I know? i understand you, but not till the stage where I can understand you completely. Than you held me with your warm arms and almost everything melted, but why does some ice just stayed there refusing to melt. It made me feel still frustrated and angry for you to just flare up at me just like that. Why is that so? Something in this relationship seems wrong. i have no idea what. maybe i'm expecting you to be that perfect guy. too high hopes on the unthinkable. i should be patient because i know your not going to enter my life more than once. sorry i've lied to you about smsing her, but i didn't know you take things so seriously. andand, when you say you don't like her ever, were you lying at me from the start? i feel that urge to call you but when i pick up the phone and hear the ring for a few times, courae melted and i just hung the call. missing you now so much. i'm all alone staring at your photos , yearning for you so much. hope that ur father didn't see you clutching my hand. :'{ you felt my pain and i felt yours too. geeez, i love you so bloody much ,boy.

STUPID PHONE NO MONEY LE! JIALIN AH, SPONSOR ME AS BIRTHDAY PRESENT CAN? :D KIND HEARTED SOUL LA YOU :/ $28 , CHEAP CHEAP. ANYWAY, MY TAGBOX GOT SHIFTED RIGHT AT THE BOTTOM, SO DUMB, I KNOW. WHATEVER. -.-