8 letters , 3 words , 1 meaning .

I LOVE YOU 

I'M GONNA DIET FROM TMRW ONWARDS,
I FUCKING SWEAR .

i still love you .. yesterday was t first month i lived my life without you . yesterday night , i sat on my bed , and memories flashed so rapidly . i wish you were with me still , this one month , was so lonely , so empty . you left and never ever returned . i put on a fake smile and walked on strongly . but many a times , whien i looked through my phone and see your msgs and pictures , tears would drop.i miss you , i really do . i wish time could rewind to where we were before. school reopening , last time we would always slack at t buildings , no more le . all gone . inbox -- (5) messages, but none from you . i guess wont have anymore ..  soon , it would be our ''5 month'' , ya , my imaginary de .. i cant help think what if ..? i cant help but think about all your promises , again and again. why did you break them ? :( if only you call me baby again .. sighs .
09082010 @ 12.18am

gone?

i had a dream and in that dream , we were still together . i see your fb wall , you like sad sad de . :( wish i knew why your sad .. i miss you .. ;<

Before i get to know you , my life was just black and white . You are the one that brought joy to me , you are the one that concern me , you are the one that love me the most , you are the one that make my life colourful , you are the one that will always be there for me , you are the one that always say me little girl . But what excatly happen ?
Remember how we first met , it was totally random . not because of __, i wouldn`t even have a chance to be with you , I cherish this relationship because i love you , Remember how we spent our first month ? The first month , we are very lovely , we make other couple jealous of us . Still remember the first time we went out together , we both like idiot never talk at all . that was t first time you held my hand . And on our first month together , we went out happy happy and that was t first time you kissed me . Remember ? How i always go to your house spending hours lying beside you , watching you sleep / how we used t spent hours fooling around like small kids ? how you would tickle me , hug me , so tightly and never wanting t let me go .. and all t kiss that was so fierce . on your early birthday celebration that time , around my house there , i say goodbye that time than just walk off le. than you behind me say : baby , where's my goodbye kiss ? how i turned around , smiled , ran t you and you kissed me . that was t second last day i had spent with you .. t last day , you sent me t school and in t bus we were still playing and talking happily ? :( and t time we went downtown , coming home that time i was so tired than you let me lie on your shoulder until it went numb . Do you remember all these ? We used to share problems , talk and play but what happen ? You started texting me very little . i'm not upset because of this , but because you don't seem t care . always wanted to tell you many things , but i didn`t even get a chance to have a proper talk with you and you left le. I just want a childish cutecute silly boyf . A old boyf i used to have , but he`s lost . All i can do is every night pray hard that he will come back . Tears have been dropping every night whenever i thought of about how happy we used to be . This memories are really beautiful , We dont know what will happen the next minute , next hour , next second , next day , a person can pass away just like that , i just dont want to regret . You once asked me weather i love you , now i will give you a ans , yes i do , i love you , i always love you , i love who you are and what you are , i love you because you are adorable , i love you because you are caring towards me , i love you because you are honest , i love you because you are my good boy , I dont care what happen in the future , i'll always love you , i dont care how you look like , because feelings is the most important things that counts . Typing this post , its really make me feel sad . But do i have a choice anymore ? No .

i miss you

BABYBOY , i miss you :(
how are you doing nao ? are you happy ? are you eating well ? so many questions left unanswered . it's killing me inside . do you know about this , or even if you do , would you care ? sighs , just hope your happy nao , even if it means me vanishing like POOOF . your free , find a girl that you really love ba .. goodbye my love .

your my life

everyday i'm dreading to wake up , to face another day without you . everyone thinks i'm moving on , but really am i ? LIFE SO SUCK ALRIGHT . everyday i'm only praying tht you'll return .. again and again it disappointment . you fell for another , what was i supposed to do . my heart like break until cant repair le. than all those memories , so beautiful , tell me how to forget. i scroll at your fb wall , see everything you write , i would end up crying again . when you asked me for stead , you swear we would last forever and ..? all your saying that you wanna marry me , be with me forever , what are those nao ? tmr is our fourth month tgt if never brk , how that date really haunt me like wth . how miserable am i nao . you once told me tht life would be different without me , but your life seeems to be th same without me . its like you don't even give a damn to me anymore . you say whenever you seee th teddy , you'll think of me .. really ? i think all those presents i gave you are just dumped aside nao . whwhy , why so bloody fcuking unfair is this world /. its really hard to pass each day. everyday waiting / hoping / praying tht you will contact me . i just wanna see you , talk to you like how we used to .. haiz . i just wanna die , go up t heaven and watch you from above ..baby , why you have to hurt me until like this .. i don't know wth is th point of living now .

dead

everything ended .
i cannot take it . it was so sudden , i didn't see it coming . i don't know what to do nao. i miss you so much , i keep want you to come back . i'm wishing for the impossible . we were so perfect , what went wrong . i don't know . your gone , for good .. and everything hurts like hell . reality is so hard to accept . :(