hold on girl

FRIENDS

i have come to realise how friends are so vulnerable beyond recognition. how each friendship is so fragile, so easily broken. friendship is like a string of thread, once you let it go, its hard to find it back again. its funny how easy friendship can be torn apart. sometimes by a simple/stupid quarrel or misunderstanding. after every quarrel/misunderstanding, both parties will wait for the other party to apologize first, thinking : why should i make the first move. and as time passes by, both will drift apart and eventually become strangers. at other times, one party would get bored with the other and start to ignore her/him, and gradually they will fade apart. occasionally, friendship can also be torn apart with no particular reason at all. its weird how human brains work. before each friendship is broken, there will always be those moments of joy and happiness spent together with her/him. when you think back at those memories, you will regret on why that precious friendship has ended. am i too choosy with friends? i remembered how many close friends i had, regardless of girl or guy, from young till now. but with time, each of them gradually leave without a trace. i guess that they have most probably forgotten about me. each of them would have their new bunch of friends and i would simply be another stranger in their eyes. why cant friendship last forever? its funny how just a day is all it takes for everyhting to change. as i look at all the neoprints i have taken over the years, a tinge of sadnesss would overwhelm me. the words "friends forever" or "best friends forever" written on these neoprints, it meant alot to me. its like a promise and those promises, like everything else, is broken one by one. lately, i have been drifting apart from alot of people. many had told me via msg or other ways that we would be great friends no matter what, but that was just another lie. i feel like a complete bitch, losing one super uber good friend after another. its like one day, we would be texting/going out/korling/chatting/slacking together like the bestest of frineds, but the next day, everything would change and communication would cease.and when we happen to bump into each other after that coincidentally, not even a smile or a word would be exchanged. we will simply walk past each other like we have never met before. i want to approach them and say hi, but i'm afraid of being shrugged off. i feel so helpless with my lack of courage.  i dont want thing to turn out like this. i don know who i am nor what to do anymore..