when everything falls apart

Forever was just a lie

YAY, finally my whole body recover from th aching from the NAPFA test. damn it, i got two bloody ass 'C' ! D: nebermind, stupid -.- no more seasons ticket le lo, than i so wanna see man {!} whateverr, boring weekends, and somemore my high card money going down very quickly ? Like one day minus $10..? FUCK. hmph.. I broke until cannot broke anymore siol. This week my pocket money only $3 for 5 days neh, unbelievable but true. Never ate for recess for one whole week lo ._. so epic cans. lol, andand, things haven't been well. as usual.. Cb, father and sister went to collect some new furniture from office, than never bring me go. 15 more days to my birthday. WOOTS! :]

Lie. Even the word believe has a lie inside. Its no wonder when you say we are forever, it was just a lie. It might be just a lie that you thought could do no harm when you say it at th start. But now.. that lie, it means so much to your sincerity and to our current situation.

Love. It doesn't cause pain. Its the most blissful and happiest feeling on earth when you esperience it. It brings you great joy, making you feel like th luckiest person alife. It make you crazy, out of mind, but yet, its worth.

Heart beat. You feel like it stops when the love dies off. Its this thatcauses the misery and pain in the world. It stabs you in the heart, and th wound somehow gets worse off everyday. It seems like its never gonna ever heal, leaving a great impact on your life. And you feel like the world is crashing right in front of your eyes. Everyday, a brand new pain invades you.

Tear drops. As they leak out of your eyes increasingly, staining your clothes wet, each signifying one feeling so lost and confused. It makes one feel so lost, so vulnerable.

Memories. Good or bad, its gonna hurt. It represent one's time spent with the other. Those were only meant to be remembered and hurt you. It makes you regret, but nothing will bring back the moments. It makes you wanna rewind back time. It makes you miss it like hell, but yet, what can you do?

I miss you, i never meant to hurt you. what the use of saying all this now? I know an apology can not make up for whatever harm i've caused you.

算了，在伤心或难过又有什么用？不管雨下多么久，太阳总有一天还是会出来的。

*Oh ya, btw, since people keep calling me put back tagbox, than i put lo. :}