you might not feel the pain until the very end

i am going to completely shut my mind of everything from today to tuesday night. so i won't be entertaining any smses or phone call, unless from my parents. i might just look at the smses, but i WON'T reply them at all. i'm shutting myself completely from this whole world for one whole day, so sorry if your smses are not entertained. something in me shut off. i'm just going to spent this whole 24 hour reflecting and thinking about whatever that happen between us .
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I believed when you said that you loved me, I believed when you said you would never leave me, I believed when you said you had to study, I even believed you, again, when you said, ‘me and you forever.Now I know you are nothing but a liar, and a cheater, you are a betrayer. I let you in my world and you destroyed it, I gave you my heart and you broke it, what else would you have done to me if you had gotten the chance, you know what I can't believe most of all, the mere fact that I even believed you. i gave you all the trust, but you misused it. i gave you my life but you killed it day by day. i want to loose my memory so i no longer think of you. i want to go so far so i no longer have to see you. i want to sleep but my dream haunt me with you in them. i want to break free and move on but i think i'll be doing something wrong. i just have to close my eyes and let things fly and let the days pass me.