Today had history paper!
Kinda hard lor.D:
I lost 13 marks already leyys.
Pathetically pathetic, yaa.
Idk what to post.
Not really have anything to say.
No mood again.

I'm confused.
I'm thinking.
I'm trying hard to reflect on what I do.
Did I even hurt you?
Or did the problem just completely lies w you?
I want to understand everything.
Your major change of attitude.
What the reson behind everything.
The old you was never like this.
There are somany questions burning inside me.
None of them w an answer.
Those question hurt.
No matter how hard I think.
There don't seem to be any possible answer.
I've pondered and I know I didn't thing to hurt you.
So what exactly has caused this drastic change in you?
I thought i had it all when we came back together.
But four days later, they just vanish into the depths of the ocean.
I knew and should have predicted that it was going to end like this.
I thought end w happy endings?
So why must I be the one ending w such a cruel ending?
Do you even mean what you say?
And what?
Do you have to scold me for no reason in class?
WHATTHEHELL la!
I just want ask you question also can't?
I'm super pissed off cans.
You ask me question that time,
No matter how busy I am, I still answer you right?
Even when at times I'm super frustrated,
I still control and answer you politely right?
Must you even flare up and scream in my ear?
Can't you be more like mingjun.
Ok, maybe you having mood swings?
It's part of growing up, I understand.
I know you mean it when you sent the last sms.
I wish it was just a dream.
And everything would be fine after I woke up.
But, it's not.
This time, I know that it will never be possible anymore.
That will always be the past.
I need to face the present and future.
I'm trying to stand back on my feet from where I last fell.
It takes time.
Everytime I'm standing halfway,
I collaspe tothe bottom again due to the pain.
I'm really broken.
I never fell for anyone.
I was always so loyal to you.
I gave in to you all the time.
SO WHY MUST YOU DO THIS TO ME?!?!
It's impossible to mend those holes and gaps.
It's impossible for the past to be the present.
It's impossible for us to ever patch up.
i know....i know..
I wish I never fell for you in the first place.
I should have given you up long ago.
So why does it seem impossible and instead grows deeper everyday.
I just want to forget you.
I want to end this suffering.
I hate wiping the wetness on my face.
I hate the tasting of the saltiness of tears in my mouth.
I hate my vision blurring from the tears when I think of you.
I hate seeing the tears smuding my words every single day.
I hate having to accept the fact that you love me no more.
My life suck.
I'm not drowning myself in self pity.
I just want to find a way in.
Isit that hard?
The temperature changed.
And nothing the same.
You left me.
You don't care about me.
Nor bother about me anymore.
And you get so cold.
I'm not sure just how much pain I can hold.
You got me standing alone.
And everything is fading.
There's so many things blocking our path.
It's a matter of time.
We can't rewind.
If only you knew my heart is filled w you.
I'm trying to break through.
I'm trapped in sorrows w no way out nor in.
I'm freezing.
Something shifted in me.
Had we drifted too far apart?
I realised I just got to move on and be who I am.
Something about us just don't seem right these days.
Life keeps getting in our wayy.
Maybe I just don't belong here.
You know I never wanted to hurt you.
We might find our place in this world someday.
But at least for now,
I got to go my way,
Alone, for the first time, without you.
There a mountain between us.
Can we bring yesterday around.
Cause I know how i feel about you now.
I was dumb.
I was wrong.
I've let you down.
Not a day passed me by.
When I don't think about you.
And there no moving on.
Cause I know you are the one.
And I can't be without you.